Bad Luck

On my last post I wrote something about being single and being able to take a hot shower whenever I want to. I was wrong. The morning after I wrote that I woke up to a cold shower. Apparently my water heater broke which left me with not just cold water but arctic temperature water. Of course this started off my morning badly and I yelled at a few kids in the beginning of the day. Then I had to call around to get someone to come look at the problem. In the process I remembered how much I hate being a grown up. I mean I like most things, but getting help from others is not my thing. Anyway, I called all around and pretty much no one was any help and I kept calling my dad to ask stupid questions because I get nervous in adult situations. Unfortunately I'm already quite stressed this week (musical this weekend) and instead of just figuring it will work out. I definitely broke down in tears while on the phone with my dad...and yes this is during the last 5 minutes of my prep period. Luckily only one child noticed my red eyes and I told her lots of things were wrong, but that I would survive. My dad came today and installed a new water heater! I love my dad!!

In other news...today I made the sophomores do this activity where they each had a character from To Kill a Mockingbird and they had to ask each other questions and then answer as if they were their character. So pretty much it was a role play activity. I assumed it would go horribly since they are not so into doing what they're supposed to. I almost didn't do the activity, but then I decided that I shouldn't figure they can't do things...I should at least try it. The good news is that two of the periods did awesome!! It was hilarious to hear their answers and especially their southern accents! They got really into it and thought they needed to speak in a southern accent the rest of the day. Oh kids. Moral of the story: it doesn't hurt to try new things, sometimes it can surprise you how well it can go!!!

We are all of us stars, and we deserve to twinkle - Marilyn Monroe

I found that quote on my Sister calendar that Kathryn gave me for Christmas. Although she was not known for her intellect I think Marilyn has a great idea there! I have had an incredibly busy last week and this coming week and during my hectic schedule I came to the conclusion that I am happy with the person I am. Not to say that I can't continue to improve myself because obviously I'm not perfect, but I guess I just like the person I seem to be becoming. This whole being in the real world for a little while now has taught me a lot about myself. I went through a big phase during part of this year where I felt like I was pretty much going to be single forever and that the next step in my life needed to be a relationship. I am now rethinking that idea and realizing that it will happen if it's supposed to. Although this whole love business has happened to many of my friends already, that doesn't mean it's my time at any point in the near future. I'm just going to have to wait and it will either happen or it won't. Either way I have a good life and there are many positives to being a single person. Let's just take a look at some that I can think of at this moment...
1. Right now I have my music blaring and I don't have to worry about if someone else would prefer to listen to something else. I love Heart!
2. I plan to watch the ABC Family movie Princess tonight, this does not seem like a male movie, but luckily I don't have to worry about sharing the tv.
3. Since I live alone I don't have to worry about someone else using all the hot water during a shower. I can use it all!
4. At this point most of my students think I'm this exciting mystery person (well sort of) and if I were married that would really take the mystery away. That's not one of my better reasons it just came to mind.

Moving on to my general thoughts about marrying early in life:
--Let's think about this: If you get married around the age of 24 you have so much less time to just think about yourself and be selfish. I guess that being selfish isn't really a good thing, but if it's indulging yourself and learning more about yourself without someone else's opinions thrown in there then I feel like being selfish is ok?!
--Also if you get married in your early 20s just think how long you are stuck with that person. I mean that's just scary. FOREVER?! That is quite a long time. This way I'll have less time to get tired of someone.

Something I never want to lose no matter if I'm in a relationship or not is knowing that by myself I can be fabulous. I don't need someone else around to tell me or to make me feel like I matter. I matter. The world would probably not notice if I were one day missing, but I think enough people would that I can feel like my presence has meant something.

Prom and beyond...

Under the Sea! That's the theme of this year's prom which happened last weekend. The best part of this years prom was that I got all of Friday off to help the juniors decorate! I loved having the day off and getting to help them create things!! We had an awesome group of kids helping so it was a really fun day! I don't remember ever being so tired during one weekend. I spent Saturday getting a new camera (I dropped mine while decorating and broke the screen), decorating some more, and chaperoning prom. Sunday I spent my afternoon/evening creating a 20 mattress bed for the musical. I have never spent so much time using a staple gun. Those stinking kids do not appreciate my work!! The musical is this coming weekend and I'm quite nervous! I think it will probably come together, but who knows? I'll try to think positively, which is very hard for me.

A glutton for punishment

Becoming a teacher means going to work every day to be completely unappreciated. It means working tons of extra hours trying to figure out ways to help students understand something that they have no interest in trying to understand in the first place. Talking about important things in class when at least 10 of them are talking at the same time and totally not listening. Feeling constantly that you are failing at getting anything in their heads but deep down knowing that the teacher can't do everything, the students have to want to learn too. At this point in the year I see absolutely no positive parts of my job except that I get 2 months away from it in the summer. Obviously I had a bad day.